Tonight I was listening to some old music.

By old music, I mean Lifehouse’s “No Name Face” album.
The year Matt and I got together, it was practically all we listened to.

There was a lot of spiritual significance the whole album. It will always be one of my all-time favorites, but the track I always loved best was “Breathing.”

I’m finding my way back to sanity again,
Though I don’t really know what I’m going to do when I get there.
Take a breath and hold on tight,
Spin around one more time,
And gracefully fall back to the arms of Grace.

‘Cause I am hanging on every word you say and,
Even if you don’t want to speak tonight that’s alright,
Alright with me.
‘Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven’s door and listen to you breathing,
Is where I want to be.
Yeah.
Where I want to be.

I’m looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth and I’m,
Trying to identify the voices in my head.
God which one’s you?
Let me feel one more time what it feels like to feel alive,
And break these calluses off of me,
One more time.

‘Cause I am hanging on every word you say and,
Even if you don’t want to speak tonight that’s alright,
Alright with me.
‘Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside your door and listen to you breathing,
Is where I want to be.

I don’t want a thing from you.
Bet you’re tired of me waiting for the scraps to fall off your table to the ground.

‘Cause I just want to be here now.

When I was listening to it tonight, I got to thinking about how your priorities shift when you really, truly realize what matters most to you.

The song really deals with that, about putting yourself on hold for just a glimpse, a mutter or whisper from that someone or something that matters the most.

The way I see it is that when you get past thinking about how everything God does benefits you personally, and go through a dark time in your life, you become more interested in knowing that at least He is out there somewhere. Regardless of whether or not you get to partake, enter the promised land, or what have you, it becomes important just to see His evidence. Proof.

It becomes an obsession to find Him moving somewhere, even if it isn’t with you. As long as He exists, life goes on.

I’m not sure what happens after that.

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